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When it comes to the state of Israel, logic does not apply. There have been numerous instances where Israel was in danger of disappearing from the face of the earth, that one may wonder how the state still exists. In my opinion Israel exists due to a different logic than we are used to, the logic that defies the odds.

I lived in Israel for almost a decade — a decade of hope for peace and explosions in Tel Aviv with thousands of innocent victims blown into pieces. I was young and believed that peace would resolve all problems and life would be so much better. It is so simple: all it would take is the cooperation of two nations in creating a better life for their people and future generations to come. Or isn’t it? (more…)

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Dear Daddy,

I shiver at the ring tone and display of your image on my phone. I desire to click “reject” yet am well aware that if I do, you will leave a voice mail in which you will shout at the top of your lungs as though speaking to an answering machine that I can hear “Ksusha, Ksusha, pick up the phone”. You will repeat the same question, time after time, as though I haven’t heard it before…”where did you disappear to???” and I annoyed will recite a few profane terms under my nose, knowing there is nothing I can do (since I have been unable to do anything about any part of your behavior in my 29 years on this earth under your spell). I will finally relax…just a little…I am well aware that you will ask the same thing you always do…”What are you doing? Where are you? When will I see you? (more…)

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It is such a great feeling to fly down the stairs. The adrenaline rush, feeling of freedom and fear combined. But eventually there comes a crash. We’ve been flying for almost thirty years with increasing acceleration and increasing sense of prosperity. Slowing the downfall will inflict some pain and maybe some broken bonds, and so we are avoiding pain at all cost hoping that the final crash won’t be so bad.

Anecdotal evidence does not correlate with the “jokers” on the screen of the TV in my office. It has been some time since I actually turned the volume on. This is not because I am smarter than any of those guys, but rather because I understand one thing that they do not…..neither I nor them poses absolute knowledge of what is going to happen in the future.
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Religion is definitely not a subject I much prefer to discuss with every Dick and Jane, yet I will never hide the fact that I do on occasion put my hands together, eyes closed, reciting gratitude and endless requests for I must have all that is offered in this world. Do I believe that there is a God? (more…)

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…..I have refrained from writing on this subject for quite some time, but enough is enough! Tiger Woods and Jesse James, the examples of the hour, have left little to be said for their behavior, yet they have managed to dupe their wives, fans, and the reading public into thinking that their behaviors is excusable by utilizing one simple word…. sex addiction. (more…)

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I may sit on my modernized couch surrounded by chachkis and imported art, yet i am no different. I may be typing on the latest design by the fabulous geniuses of Apple, yet I am not unlike them. I may be trembling in horror yet i could never know the pain some have suffered.

I have been referred to, on numerous occasions as a “mail order bride”, “slut”, or “prastitutka” (Russian for prostitute) by men of various backgrounds who have so kindly labeled me as such because my kind were in such trade in their country.

I would like to thank the bastards for their references and stereotype of slavik women and belief that we are “sexual”, “dominated”, “serving”, and ultimately “slaves”. Without your absurd comments I would have never sought the educational aspect on the situation.
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As the new year fast approaches I cannot help but think of the way we await the arrival of the first of the new year in hopes of making a fresh start. Each year we vow to get a gym membership (and actually go), quit smoking/drinking/etc, read more, take a cooking class, learn to dance, or do that one thing that we had placed on the back burner in the years passed. (more…)

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